I am 44 years old, and accepted Islam in 2002, wa'lhamdulillah. I have been married before (13 years), but divorced for many years now. I am currently working on a BA in General Islamic Studies after which I plan to continue in the pursuit of Islamic knowledge, insha'Allah, so that I can use that in the Dawah work which takes a central role in my life. The primary focus of that work is calling the Muslims back to correct Islam as it was understood and implemented by the Sahaba and those who followed them, which most the Ummah has abandoned, in favor of chasing after luxury, and the glitter of this dunya. But Allah SWT says in His Book: "Whoever desires the life of this world and its adornments - We fully repay them for their deeds therein, and they therein will not be deprived. Those are the ones for whom there is not in the Hereafter but the Fire. And lost is what they did therein, and worthless is what they used to do. (al-Hud 15-16)
I have very little in material wealth, so I can't afford to sponsor anybody for residency, and dont have some career or degree I can transfer to another country. What I do have to give, is trust, love, and absolute, unflinching, loyalty. Like any human being, I desire companionship, but my primary motivation in seeking marriage is to please Allah SWT, and follow the Sunnah of His Messenger, SAAW. Looking at all the different marriage sites and all the people I honestly feel like 'why bother, nobody wants to marry a 44 year old divorcee living on disability', but I know that if someone is written for me in my Riz'k then I will find her. If not, then I know Allah SWT knows better than I, what is good for me.
