Bismillah
As salaamu alaikum
Realizing today that you may be farther away than I thought. Paths that I hoped would lead to you seem to be dead ends, dry river beds devoid of the hydration I crave. Insha’llah my search for you doesn’t become some endless endeavor that only death will conclude. I seek the comfort of you, daily, to only crawl under the blanket each night for my slumber in solitude. How long my fortitude will offer defense before crumbling to complete defeat is unknown. I hear myself proclaiming love for you, the sound resonating through my head, the sound at times maddening. I resist ending my conversations with “I love you” when although I am proccupied with imagining you, I am talking to a complete stranger to my heart. If I am blessed to embrace you before the fraility of age, I suspect the power of my longing may just extinguish my heart right at the moment of contact.
Longing to complete the other half of my deen with a pious loving wife.
Amin